Reflector

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I think I’m gonna miss the exams. I don’t know why but I think these last 2 to 3 weeks have been the best in the year. I’m gonna miss going to the med library with company, staying in school from morning to night, going to NUH to eat, buying drinks at the 7-11 etc. Not to mention, Benny Hinn came 2 weeks ago haha. Oh dear, exams are ending in 3 days time. Hahaha

And things won’t be the same again without the med library. Aw…

Man I’m tired. Hahaha. Been mugging in the med library with shim, raymond and company for the past 2 weeks. At first it was fresh, it was something I haven’t been doing for a long time – studying. That’s why it was so enjoyable the first few days. Then slowly, it became less and less productive. I still manage to do stuff, but can’t concentrate as well as the first few days. I think I study best in spurts, like how growth hormones(GHs) are released. If GH is released constantly, the GH receptors would be sensitised and won’t work after a while. (Physio) Hahaha.

I think I’ll miss studying once exams are over. I’ll miss the med library days. They’re tearing it down by the way. After this sem, there’ll be no more med library. They’re shifting all the books to the science library. So sad right. I spent like half my life there la. Ok maybe less than that but still, it’s a really cool place to hang out.  Wish I could spend my free time in the med library flipping through the pharmacy or medicine books. If I didn’t have anything better to do, that is.  

I realise why I’m not so smart. Because half my brain power is used up thinking about stupid and useless things. So I’ve only half a brain to study, memorise things and remember names, faces and events. Which is half less than everyone else. I think I’ve read through the neuro chapters 13-15 about 3 times already and I still don’t understand everything. Oh well. Studying is fun, because it’s not my life hahaha. When studying was my life, it wasn’t fun, because if I didn’t do well then my life would be gone. But I’ve a better purpose now. Don’t know exactly, but definitely not studying. Hahaha.  

The brain is interesting, but I don’t like to study about it. Ventromedial pathways, basal ganglia, spinothalamic pathway, alpha and gamma motor neurons, diffuse modulatory systems etc. So many things to remember and well, ya.

Kinda wish NUS would let me take a philo minor.

Things feel the same. Haha.

Been camping at med library the past 2 weeks, almost. It’s a really nice place to study. Not too big like the central library and no strange book-smell. It isn’t as packed as YIH or the central library either, and there’re smart people here and there to motivate you to study.  The sub-zero temperatures are ideal for brain function. Do you know your brain works optimally at cold temperatures? If the rest of your body doesn’t, bring a jacket, so simple.

Praise the Lord. I don’t get sleepy when I study in the med library, only one exception last week. Haha. But now my brain feels a little fried, a bit hard/lazy to focus my eyes. Studying is quite fun. Only when you’ve an exam coming up of course, but still, it’s not dreadful haha. I actually wish the med library would open 24 hours. It only opens up til 10pm. I might actually camp in school if it did open 24 hours. Hahaha.

Another motivating factor is the company. It’s a bit boring to study all alone at home, so in the library there’s shim, raymond and an occasionally third or fourth person. Haha. But as fun as studying is, I can’t wait for exams to be over. Because once exams end, POS training starts! Man I can’t wait for POS! Hahaha. I might finally be able to get rid of my tummy.