Reflector

BS today was just wonderful.

It was after a tiring day; I had 2 tests, one in the morning and one in the late afternoon. During the tests, I felt kinda happy doing them. Because I prayed the previous night, like I do most of the time, that the tests were in God’s hands and I couldn’t do anything more for the situation. And we’re to come to Him boldly, so I asked Him to honor me Just as I honored Him. Normally I’d feel it’ll be rather outrageous to ask God like that but hey, He’s our Father Don’t know the results but I think they’ll be better than my previous ones haha.

I say again, bs was great. It’ll be great when I learn more about God and actually get a revelation from it that affects or changes my way of thinking, my attitude and the way I do things. It just gets more and more exciting.

We learnt about legalism today. About the teachings of law and grace. It’s not easy to fully comprehend unless you’ve the basics and a firm foundation in the faith, so it’s easy to see why some people can misunderstand the whole topic altogether and go into extremes if their foundations aren’t strong.

And when it got to the part about how some christians backslide because of legalism, I was reminded of a friend. If only she knew what happened. If only she’d hung on until this bible study, maybe she wouldn’t have left. But all is not lost.

And I was also shaken by this issue. Last year, I always felt compelled to do things which I didn’t want to do. And it was quite a terrible feeling. I was also shaken by that friend. Oh but I’m still here. Cos I decided to hang on, by God’s grace. My mind was really a ‘battlefield’ at that time. Still is, sometimes. But Jesus, He is the Christ, He has the words of eternal life. Who else could I turn to? I know if I let go of God, that’s the end of my destiny.

Revelation can set people free. I know now that I Am Free Indeed.

Jesus died to set us free. Some christians live in bondage, because they don’t have the revelation that they don’t have to do anything to win God’s love. It’s given by grace. I need to learn how to express myself properly, because I can’t fully express the whole bs lesson here. But the Word of God is amazing.  

I Am Free!

Praise the Lord! I’m not moving!! Hahaha. My mum just said that the buyer of our estate had until monday to pay up, or else the deal’s dissolved, which is quite impossible. So yay! Haha I prayed that either I won’t move house or I’ll move to somewhere in a central location. So that’s good. Hahaha. And plus we’re going to get the 5% deposit which the buyer forfeited. Which is a very large amount.

And yay! I didn’t do too badly for my 3 tests after easter. For pharmaco and pharm prac, it was comparable to the rest of the class. Considering I didn’t have as much time as the rest of them to study, it’s really great hahaha. And even though I got 5 out of 35 questions wrong for my forensic science test, I got an A! For SDL, my group isn’t presenting, but we got an A-! That’s good. Hahaha. And for my microbiology practical reports, I didn’t get lower than A-, even got an A+ for one schedule  Long time since I saw an A+ hahaha. 

And best thing is, I don’t dread studying. In fact, I actually look forward to the times when I can study. Because right, since there seem to be a lot to study and very little time to do so, I’m quite happy when I can actually sit down and study, so I study happily Hahaha.

I was an incredibly negative person 2 years ago. One thing about following Jesus is that it makes a person more positive about things. Because God is a positive God. And being positive makes everything look better and less tedious, less tiring.

Why stay the same when you can be better each day? Change is hard. Sometimes it requires you to get out of your comfort zone, to sacrifice. It requires you to give up certain things which are holding you back. It’s not easy. Sometimes excruciatingly painful. To change, you must be able to see the reason for it and make a definite and strong decision to change.

If there is no change, you cannot move forward. Things will just be stagnant. Nothing will improve.

Change doesn’t have to come all at once. It can come bit by bit, slowly but surely.

But if you want to enter into the destiny that God has prepared for you, change is necessary.

Today was interesting. Hahaha. I had bible study today!! And I didn’t even know that there was BS today until rachel smsed me at 5.30pm to ask me if I was going Man, good thing I didn’t really plan anything for tonight. BS started at 7.30pm, so I didn’t really have much time to do work in the ps room anyway before I had to head down to riverwalk.

Man I love BS.

I’m now at my next book, Gifts of The Holy Spirit (GTHS). I was a bit hesitant about going for the next BS because I felt that I haven’t really moved on to the next level after I finished AFV. Haven’t really read through, fully digested and applied what I learnt in AFV. So I don’t know whether I’m maturing spiritually fast enough to catch up with the BS. I really doubt so. But met Audrey at riverwalk today, she was going for the GTHS class too for make-up BS. She said that no one is ever truly ready. That sort of reassured me a bit.  

We learnt about The Holy Spirit In Our Lives for the first lesson. I think my memory is quite bad, because I didn’t remember how enjoyable BS was until the lesson started.

Why do we need to have BS lessons and not just read from a book? My BS teacher is still brother Darren. Yay. Hahaha. He has loads of experiences which he shares with us during BS. It really ignites something in me which wants to know more about God, and want to know what he knows about God. When he talks about his experiences, it’s so real. And the way he talks about things, it just makes so much sense that you’d wonder why you never thought that way before. And different BS teachers have different experiences and testimonies.

I’ve had the privilege of having BS with pauline for my first 3 BS books. Then I went for class cos she wanted me to be more independent. And also cos there were other people who needed her attention more la.

Don’t really want BS to end, but I’ve only got 3 or 4 more books to go after GTHS before there’re no more books to cover.

Anyway, GTHS will be exciting, because it’s about the Holy Spirit Haha. Still need to get to know Him personally. BS helps, but ultimately, it depends on how much I want to know Him and what I’m willing to do.