Reflector

It’s cool not to have anything to do. And it’s even cooler to have people to do nothing with! Ok la maybe not nothing, but things which are not urgent or important.

God is good. Like I’m stating the obvious again right. Hahaha. I got my results back, and they were ok, not bad. My CAP improved by 0.05. Hahaha. Which takes me closer to my goal!

I want fingers which won’t hurt after playing the guitar! I want iron fingers!

And I think the message for me this week is.. To seek God’s face instead of His hand. I listened to one Joyce Meyer sermon I bought a long time ago.. She said that if her husband came back from overseas and she goes to get him from the airport, if she only looked for what he had bought for her without even bothering about him as a person, he’d definitely feel insulted. Same thing with God. 

But if we seek after HIm for who He is, He’d be happy to grant our requests. And He already knows what they are so we don’t have to keep telling Him as if He’d forget. Just seek after Him. Seek the Giver, not the gift.

And it’s true.. when I become more preoccupied with the things I need or want, I become stagnant. 

Motivation. 

Faith is a decision. It is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Heb 11:1.

Change takes a step of faith. Change is scary. Even change which is good, is scary. Why is it scary? Because change leads to the unknown. And change involves risk, sometimes discomfort. But sometimes, change is necessary for something good to happen. And the good outweighs the risk and discomfort, even though it may not seem like it at first because we tend to focus on the negative, which is the discomfort.

Sometimes, other people can see the good in change, more than we can see it ourselves. They persuade us to change, but the thing is, because we focus so much on the negative aspects of change, of how afraid we are to change, that we delay the change and as a result, remain stagnant. The situation doesn’t change, nothing changes, simply because we don’t make the decision to take the step to change.  

Procrastination will delay, and even stop, change.

A lot of times, we don’t reach our fullest potential. We don’t fulfill our destiny, because of procrastination to change.

Most of the time, it’s only after I’m victorious over an issue that I write about it. This is not one of them. There’s always something to stretch my faith. Big thing, in my own eyes at least.

I need to change. Everyone can see it, and I can see it too. But I can’t make myself take that step. Or the many steps. I’m scared. I keep saying I don’t know what to do. In a sense, I don’t.

Does it take faith to rely on God? Yes it does. God help me.

I realised that I very seldom, if ever, blog about cell group. Ah, but yesterday’s cell was really quite exciting. I mentioned to pauline last week that we were told by our bs teacher to tell our leaders that we wanted to give a word in cell, to exercise the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Tell our leaders first, to burn the bridges so that there’s no return, can’t back out Our teacher’s so evil right. Hahaha.

So apparently pauline remembered and yesterday after the cell group message, she opened up the time for us to share a word, anything the Spirit prompts us to say. First, she started off by giving christopher a word(In case anyone doesn’t understand, a word doesn’t mean one word. It’s just whatever God wants to say to the person). Then she told us to close our eyes. Then she laid hands on someone and told jie yun to give the person a word. Jie yun said later that she actually saw the person’s face flash in her mind, so she knew who she was speaking to. She’s an SOT student haha. Wow.

Then somehow I had a feeling that pauline would call me. And yes, after jie yun, she told me to give a word to the next person she laid her hands on. Wah. Didn’t know who it was la. Unlike jie yun, the person’s face did not flash in my head. Hahaha. Slightly panicky, because my mind went blank, then desperately asked God what He wanted me to say. But I took a really long time because well, felt as if reception was bad hahaha..or I was just scared to say something wrong la I learnt later on that pauline laid hands on one person, then because I took so long, she laid hands on another person… and I only spoke after she laid hands on a third person. Oh well, but wow..what I said apparently hit a spot. Praise God. Hahaha.

Well, before it was my turn, immediately after pauline said that we were going to give words (I’ve no idea what it’s called), I sort of had one word (literally), which led to a verse. Then I was like, har… is it just me, or did God give me the word? Because it was out of the verse which really spoke to me, Isaiah 50:4 “The Lord GOD has given Me the tongue of the learned, that I should know how to speak a word in season to him who is weary.” Then the verse was “come to Me, all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.”

In my mind, I thought, “Har, got someone who is weary meh? It’s kinda like holidays.. and isn’t it like quite cliche or something? God.. really meh?” Hahaha. Ok it’s very easy for doubts to come in once you start to reason like that, because God knows things which we don’t know at that time.

Well apparently someone was.

Then next was jac’s turn, and she was also very accurate. Hahaha. Cool heh.

Then I asked jie yun when we were shopping after cell, “Man..why does the Holy Spirit have to talk soooo softly? She said “I don’t know…”

But I could hear the answer almost immediately. So that people won’t take My voice for granted.